Happiness

"Life holds so much-so much to be so happy about always. Most people ask for happiness on condition. Happiness can be felt only if you don't set conditions." ~Arthur Rubinstein

i just got back from Christmas with the family, where i had a mini life crisis. i go home periodically during the year, but lately Christmas has been a real bitch to get through.

part of this is my own wiring. i tend to make myself sick with worry about what will be and what is to come. and i also judge myself. and apparently i've decided that Christmas is a great time to concentrate on all possible harbingers of doom. why, i don't know. because things are good. life is good. i'm in love, i have a great passion and talent and i'm making real progress. all i know is that, when i'm in the pits there is no rational thought - and there is no way out of that business if you can't think rationally. because when half of your brain is concentrating on nightmares that you fabricate, it's really hard to channel that energy into constructive and productive thought. i'm working on it. self-destructive thinking is exactly that. and it kills happiness. it's important to take stock of where you are and what you want out of your life. but it's most important to look around you and see all of the beauty and love in your life. and to LAUGH. and on that note: