Tickity Tock

Hey! Hey out there! I'm back! I bet your happy to see ME, huh?!
So, yup - it's been awhile. Not much to report on the 'my life is an amazing experience every day of my life. i can't wait to get out of bed in the morning!' scene. Though the book that inspired me to get my blog on is being made into a movie, i noticed. I don't feel very blog worthy these days. I'm miserable in this fucking office. I keep saying i am biding my time until I get a commercial or -a pilot? Oh, ladies and gents...trying to be optimistic takes work. Gotta look on the up and up. I've been working hard though. Got my reel made. I'm calling in favors, i'm really trying to visualize it happening and you know - bit by bit - i have to believe it is. i'm surely further along this year than i have been. i love performing, i love writing, i love the process - and i really, really would love to be paid for it so i don't have to walk into a soul sucking vacum everyday and worry that i'll never have a home, financial freedom, a family. i swear everytime i see a baby these days my womb cries. i saw THE CUTEST BABY EVER the other day and i seriously was pretending in my mind that she was my kid. it also added to my fantasy that she ran up to me and i'm almost possitive i heard her say 'mama'. oh boy. hickory dickory dock y'alls.